Time is precious, Strive for your future!

Another fishing day again...
midnite electric down (not sure what time because I was over tired and unable to get to look on clock but keep awake because of heat)
woke up at 8 am...oh man super sleepy~
get ready right until 8.30 am..awaiting M msg.
9.00 finally received his msg that he was arrived and I bring down everything I need to pass him.
Well...directly been to kopitiam nearby office to have breakfast.
But can't afford to eat so much due stomach feeling pretty weird because of wind again?
10.00 am - 10.30 am~ cut the sticker...fishing~din get hurt with knife due I am half awake.
You'll see my panda eye appear again lately...
hopefully RO2 could be open tonite?
Steamboat~sis is so excited about that?
what about me?once i imagine the food...my stomach start feeling weird -.-"
So i dun think i will crazy with them for the sake of my health.
As she said, flight finally been settle...
While I was keep wondering do I key in any wrong info, but hopefully nope due this is the 1st time I book flight and that was the amount that I'm not afford to pay if there's any mistake hahaha~
So our next move is get well plan with tourist.
And get well prepared with genting stuff...readying a list now "TO DO/PREPARE LIST"
Sunday to have more discussion & pass them document I've prepared for everyone.
No matter they are going to keep or not, it is still my responsibility to pass them a copy.
Maybe I was just over perfectionist? hahaha
Well? Recently everything get planned well and hopefully there's no trouble maker...
Just received msg from team there's opp event for tml and sun..
hmm~tml might be ok but depends on my task.
And Sun been book by ES gang~ So cannot make it.
I can't guarantee to said that I am a good leader nor planner,
but I will become best leader to get everything settle & complete.

what I expect is just this sunday shopping...
C'mon & enjoy your holiday!
Alrdy think of not to go to work tml haha.
Muscle feel a little painful due ytdy carried home M stuff around 5-6kg.
Afterward,carried down 12kg + flyer down for my client..
This morning carried down M stuff for him again.


RO2 delay to 3rd jan 2013~~
looo, no choice due i'm just a tiny little player~
what we can do is just wait and wish their best of workout to stabilize the server...
since this game is f2p...you can't complaint much otherwise you sponsor a server for us!~
there's lot of spam n complaint by just complaint rather than given more advice and support to people who are getting some works done.

is that the way you support a f2p game?

xmas? pass as usual, n nth special

想象~
想法~
思考~
整理~
分析~

看来这些成为了一个习惯
今早一起床又在思考了
昨晚入睡前依然思考

思考些什么？一整天在做什么，明天该做什么，有什么重要还没解决，financial 统计。
今早呢？看到面子书，题目自然是 CF (Comic Fiesta)
昨天，
小弟弟看着我跟时间比赛似的
因为才吃完早餐，
就来一大堆的信息
有个更是最麻烦的工作需要改善，由于在明天前需准备好
刚巧他们又问今天的节目
我，简直是没时间理会
因为那份设计图，很多麻烦~

结果，
刚弄完一半 （由于artwork有问题，重复了整理几回）
另一通电话来了，
得交卡片给队友。
就在准备着要下楼之际，
另一个信息也跟着来了。
铨兄出门了。

茶都没喝完，
小弟弟看着我走来走去，
非常地匆忙
说：哈哈哈~你很赶哦！衣服来不及换，茶没喝完。妈妈带回来的汤圆吃不了。

从昨晚的聚会来看，
我似乎无法融入他们的话题
只静静的观察着他们的对话
从何时我对这些完全不感兴趣了
也许话题触感不了我能表达的地方
说到31号聚会，
假期？我吗?只要我想，不成问题
因为，各种理由我都篇得出~
还无需动用MC这招
我赞同铭的说法，MC这理由最容易过关。
出席率？我不在乎因为bonus比我自己赚的外快少得多，所以完全没顾虑过
各有各的理由，但也需要找个能解决的方案

至于另一个的问题。
简单的说辞就是 “固执”

对我而言，
要 = 一起想办法得到/解决
不要 = 就不要，无需多说
要，又不要这理念最烦人
通常不能出现在我思考里

很多东西想要买
需要归类重要性
再考虑考虑吧~
旅行费?
早就准备好了
31号准备的食物？
有列表我就叫人办事
没有列表，叫我如何订货呢？

Doomsday?
Dumbs day!~
But the sun this morning seems a bit yellowish.
Just feel, a little bit different due its not completely bright.
Oh man~ here comes my work holic habit as a designer~

Doomsday?Never believe it...
Because I'm not rich as millionaire where be able to bought/own a flight nor a ticket to MOON?haha
I am no god or superman where I can't even save myself.
So...leave it & enjoy your life as usual!~

Ytdy the kali fish head was pretty good and cheap because shop belongs to KIT's student family.
once again KIT scold me how can I alrdy planned what supper/dessert to have along with chicken wing~
and when talked about exercises, her fren "evon"din seems to believe I could do lots of pumping and sit up every morning n nite but think of mby I works with "yoga"?

Hmm,what do you think?yoga??? totally not my style isn't it~I dun like something very slow due I am very impatient on sport stuff.
I would prefer speed & power.
I din argue about her thought because its not a matter of argument anyway.
Kit knows I could walk up 3 floor up and down along with 2k flyers...lol~
Keep my muscle growing~ XD

I just wonder why most of walk in always come to me was like I am the only human here and colleague was GHOST all the way free sitting there most of the time...feeling super beh song about that.
And the way she talked this morning very rude even its just a few words.

Unbelievable 2 am still received someone sms...
its...from sis!? =.="
said about the flight price...

Well,
If its not a 1k flight budget...
no matter how much it's still acceptable to me.
So I ask her to ask "the rest" who always hv trouble of settlement.

At the same time, before I went out from home
I've sent mail to pudu regarding about some questions and changes of date and itinerary.

Well, that's my melancholy characters...
wants everything in well plan and perfect / at least there's lot of back up plan...
Good about myself is that controlled with choleric where started the move rather than just "wait"...

Because I dislike waiting people's decision and let people wait for my decision.
What I want & offer is...
solution & settlement

今天，
很不辛
收到了妈妈打来的电话。
说，咱们的爱猫~
遇到了车祸。

它走了，
陪伴了咱们两年的它没缘让我们陪伴它到最后。

妈妈说难道我不伤心难过吗
小弟弟一听到就在一角落哭了很久，很久
将近一小时吧。
也听得出妈妈话中的伤痛

你说我能不伤心吗？能不心疼吗？
它比你们任何一个更亲近与我。
我应该是最心疼的那个吧
我比你们任何一个都想摸到它
那漂亮的毛发
温和的出来欢迎我回家的那一刻

那般心疼不是以“泪”能衡量的，
而是转变成了另一种心情
一种看得开的心情
然后跟妈妈说，
而外找一个新的来养咯？
带回来~
我也很愿意帮你们看是否合适~
要刚出世的那种哦~

动物，就是这样
短短的几年生命
能陪伴我们的时间也有限
从你们领养它那天起
我已经有这样的心理准备

哭不出，不是因为不伤心
而是因为思想长大了
知道这是我无能为力的事情
如果还有的救，那倒无妨
我相信我会是第一个扑回去救它的那个

事实就是
它已经走了
我也没办法
也能让小弟弟了解
体会到“珍惜”的可贵

毕竟，
他这年纪还没体会过失去宠物的经验
小弟弟的电话封面
就是它的图片
也可说电话里全部都是它的图片吧
弟弟他那份伤感
我是深深地明白
因为比他更小的年纪
我已经历过无数
以前婆婆家很多猫咪的哦~

只能诚心祝福它
下一世还能让我们成为它的家人。

谢谢它这两年带给我们的欢乐
是我们一家人的关系有一个特别的联系
它也一定很幸会
有那么疼它的家人

这不是花言巧语
更不是篇出来的谎言
因为这一切
能从这照片里呈现出来
它得到我们的领养
是多么的幸福

Fishing~Fishing and fishing!!
I could stand there while doing photocopy along with fishing...
Customer print out photo~ There's few second I am also fishing unconsciously...
Is there any fish being caught?? none i guess hahaha!!~
Right until 12 am...betahan alrdy and went to sleep
At the end I din really rmb what I really hv to do that night. "workout"
Ahhh nvm...tml need to go settle some bank in due ytdy left 1 machine was working and there's lots of people so I decided to come back later.

Dun even know why I went to starbucks and bought their aluminium bottle, size grande.
hmm...well? might think of to save lots of budget in future on that...
Save RM 2 on each beverage and claim free drinks for this time.
The staff asked do I need the new starbucks card...
haha well it looks pretty good design but think of they always create new design. It could mean I hv to register plenty of cards??
So its a NO to me...well if the card could be switch or RENEW...its another deal then...

Chase up payment again...
Due I really hope to clear out and settle all of that by this month since its the last month of 2012.
Well and about 21/12/12?? if it really does come? What you can really do?
Its just darkness OK, its not a really big deal and cause any big disaster rather than earthquake, tsunami, tornado etc.
Human eye could comfortable in darkness as long as they are in that situation...animal is more comfort in that actually compare to human being...
And again...what you really can do about that?
Sit there and pray? Pray towards who? Will they come forward and save us? NO!~

Heard their conversation this morning "boss and colleague"
Is that really funny enough? You can't see any laugh from me...
My humor was just too hard to reach.....
Well, you know what I meant~

Get new skin for my vita~look pretty awesome~
And a bottle of starbucks with free hot chocolate~

I felt really tired.
I've list my task of right after step in office.
OMG! it is over than 20 numbers!!
It's gonna be very busy and rush week.
But I enjoy it rather than being lazy everyday~
That would contribute my spirit and energy of doing things...

saw those stupid books being arrange on the floor.
Guess that fella going to throw responsibility towards me again.
I'll do it slow~~~slowly as she thrown it to me all of it and she'll responsible to serve all other walk in customer.
Want it be done before school start? How stupid dateline it was and 100% confirm wont be finish because they are not the one who do it so they wont understand the time it takes.

Been to wls December for three days.
after meeting of Sunday, rush back home and massive rain...m asked do i need an umbrella while it was just a few step to downstairs beside my house...
I said not necessary but i saw his gentleman faces and the way he spoke was so so differently in a split when he turn around.

Rush out by teksi for movie again and get 70% wet while entering cinemas especially shoes...
interesting movie with lots of meaning but as kit says...i would prefer to watch hobbit even more than that...
Well, arrange for it again...
Having fun ma jiong and nami,at meng houses again and i actually share lifecare programmer to raven bro and he actually interested in it.
That was great..I am really appreciate when people acknowledge my sharing because what I really doing lately is sharing and helping.

After todays section, I've been told to follow with m to special group meeting.
Again, I've been there before.
M asked question again hahaha...and he actually told me about some others thing he never share with me before...hey yo?it means our relationship raise up again and i really nvr thought to see his gentle emotion face before.
he talked and share about something else i nvr heard from him before and his current goal.
He actually really have fate in me i guess?
I felt guilty and shame becoz i din work my best for him.
they wan us to share what do we learnt or our opinion of current wls.
I told them it was great and i actually love it.that is why i am still keep going and going...lastly i add on dun miss the next one...
Hahaha, guess I've coincidentally copy their quote along as a habit?

Angie somer and carl willson only could be describe in single sentences, OMG that's awesome!!!
Even the shape up and cooking presentation...
I can tell you thier performance was way better than all previous I've been...
Angie was strong,pretty and awesome.
i actually heard fadlee says that she is really fit and strong body due they notices during behind the stage.
I'm gonna told kit how unluckily she can't be there with us and enjoy it.
Ya its true we cant explain how does it looks like and feelings.
Becoz we just simply dunno how to describe it by word.
You must see and feel with your own eye and ear.

How was it?isn't that awesome?thanks for you guys coming and join with me for the next as well.
freedom was funny...c never thought we could be so funny and i notices her real laugh during our friday dinner.
That was my very first listened her loud real laugh, honestly!!...
We chat a lot funny stuff and we laugh while we having fun chit chat and even during the wls.
I believe she will tell m about how funny we are hahaha...
Great!awesome!i learnt a lot and enjoy it a lot...
let's have fun on next march wls again and get more people to join us to hv same fun and feeling.
Thanks to built back my inspirstion and fire.
The things i learnt today:
built your attitude for 30 days to become a habit rather than just have it as a habit.
I am sure i would have a sleep dream today and good nite

While I am still wondering will you wrote down your summary for this 3 day but when the time i open up blog this morning I found out you alrdy written.
glad to hear that you learnt a lot more than what I expected!

M knew my main problem...my goal...because I am thirsty & full of hunger so I didn't have a very main goal.
That's why he always mentioned "goal" in front of me...
What I want?its just too much until it couldn't be counted!!~
If there's day I could stand on stage and speak...

I would tell everyone...
"I want everything!!I want to show them everyone have their own decision of what they are doing & I am gonna proof I will not regret about that!!I love to speak & being acknowledge on stage!"

I told m & C I am phlegmatic and melancholy when they questioned last time...
But actually I'm full with choleric and 3 of it.
They knew it? isn't they~~
Except sanguine~

小弟弟回到苏邦晚上睡觉不经意发现床湿透了.
以它的个性,不可能在我们床上撒尿.
看到一堆血,把个个都吓坏了,他跟妈妈还连夜跟它清理伤口,清洗床单等等
然后妈妈一直叫爸爸带它下来我这.

原因:
1.有人看顾它
2.有人照顾它伤口
3.我带它去看兽医
4.修养伤的地方
5.不给它在这段时间到处乱跑

经兽医检验,不需要缝针
兽医说我们做得很好,平时肯定很照料它的饮食与环境的清洁.
伤口没有因环境脏,或弃它的伤口不顾而严重.
发现没有发炎,只是流了一天的透明液体,伤口自然复合.
兽医说至少三兴起,伤口才会完全合上,
开了点抗生素要跟一支药膏.

才一星期,它的看来恢复得比预料来得快.
只不过天天吵着要出门,
很聪明的它,早上八点会跳上床上看着你,叫你起床"开门我要出去"那样.
偶尔也会一直看着我,叫我开门要出去走走...
昨晚因为太吵了,小弟把它关在笼子里
你可知道它怎么样么...
它时不时看着我,
那表情....就是要我放它出来那样...

受伤期间,
个个都为会它担忧...
除了大弟弟这没良心的怪卡.
所以他才会昨天在他床上捣蛋,大小便 =.="
搞得他洗床~

刚刚带它回来,
看到那伤口,
很深,
伤口还没复合前,
还看到里面的不少肉跟深处.

真不知它如何弄伤的,
这么奇怪,又深的洞.

偶尔还发现它会发脾气,
因为没得出门...

只要不断仔细观察它,
就知道它像表达什么...

兽医说在这期间不能让它自己出去,
所以...时而不时用藤条吓吓它.
就会乖乖的,
也会自己逃进房间去

常常一旁跟它讲话,
其实,
它真的会听的叻!~

知道我们一定会买它那份食物,
每次都静静的等,看,坐在一旁,
等我们给东西它吃.
所以我跟人说,
它吃榴莲,臭豆腐,滑蛋河等平常动物不吃的食物
都很奇怪的问: 有没有哦!?竟然跟人一样吃这种食物?

它小小就被我调教到什么都吃吧?
一想起爸爸妈妈一开始只喂未熟的香肠
所以导致它肚生虫我看顾的时刻...都恐怖 -.-"

今天看到,让我拍到它这表情
不仅觉得~
它好幸福哦?
它脸上都写完出来了叻!~

原来，学院读书时期所遇到的恐惧依然存在
眼睛一被闪亮的光线照射，或完全不是我的方向，只不过是眼睛看得见。
下雨天，都会有份恐惧感。
我很怕闪电。
眼睛不想睁开，
每次闪亮，会不自禁想闭上
耳朵想塞着，
心跳加速
玩着RO2，
可是由于闪电的关系导致网络不稳定。
每一次要打mini boss 过任务的时候都卡着，
就算是一点点的卡，也导致死亡。
因为solo...超越自己lv的王，
能够差不多胜利已经很好了。
换作别的职业，应该找就卦了吧~
暂时放弃游戏，
戴上耳机，
开音乐避免听到雷声。

原因，
在TARC读书时，走过一个走廊，餐厅隔壁罢了。
突然有闪电打下来，
我眼前的那棵树，准准在我的视线。
眼前一片白，然后黑。
几分钟后才恢复视觉。
同样在身边的一些同学们也像中了定身招，站在那几分钟。
树也烧了起来。

我有三个不能容忍的玩笑。
一 ： 驾驶速度不能超过一定数目
二 ： 别拿昆虫开我玩笑，我会立刻跟你反面，不论以往感情怎么好也没得说
三 ： 闪电

今早的心情，特别的好
也许是因为昨晚再次被启发的缘由，
也因为很久没碰online game,昨晚刻意下载了RO 2 close beta...
由于电脑的DVD ROM install 不了 CD ><"
喝完差，回到家就开始了。
还不错，只不过很confuse...玩到2点，server close 了

而且昨晚又得到非常好的质询
努力寻找志愿者
因为我很想送妈妈一份，如果允许最起码是免费的
我自己也想很久了，机会来了，要尽量把握。
所以一早就打电话给几个朋友，
之后再进一步撒播出去。
明天再跟sam出去，听听他那里有没有比这个更好的质询。

最近我都一直不断在收集咨询吧？
再进一步了解更多。
下星期的WLS, 如果可以，
星期六我想去一趟了解更多，
带着她们一起去看看。

因为这不是产品推销，
是非常难得的服务计划，
由于本人不怎么坚信医院的完善服务，所以这个会更有说服力。
起码他们把服务排在第一位，
而医院则医药费被排在第一位，
因为我们不是医生。

昨晚听说了一部分消息。
全球人面临破产。
一是因为债务，二是医药费~
10%的人是完全健康
10%的人出于真正的生病
80%的人出于非健康
非健康的含义？就是表面看健康，其实并不是那样的。

我昨晚回去询问小弟弟他所知道的知识。
另一理由是想实施
1。你知道普通生病看医生要多少钱？“生命检验”
2。你知道验血要多少钱？
3。你知道进一步的检验需要多少钱？“xray,CT scan, MRM,骨骼检验 etc”
4。医生通常跟你说设么？
5。你了解你的病情多少？
6。医疗设备服务如何？检验报告的了解？
7。你有听过医院会反过来给你利息的吗？

他的回答：
1。生命检验，当我看到那名词时（给我的第一个印象是。死不死得去~）3x+ 咯
2。验血，虽然还没检验过，但是对我来说已经不便宜，1xx-300x 吧？
3。更不用说, 贵得要命！几千？几万?
4。自己都知道的啦, 而且不知道详情
5。最基本的病情。然后就是“请你到楼下领药，给钱” 你真的了解多少？
6。都是看不明白的词语，都是叫你来就来，叫你走就走。
7。真的！？不可能吧

不错啊，起码他知道这些。。。
付了一比一大对钱，但是不知道自己付什么钱
然后跟他说说我现在所知道的吧。他赞非常好！

我又多了一个名词啦，
虽然仍未是正式的
“健康管理规划师”
哇哈哈哈！

Can't said that I hate wet weather,
Actually I really love winter season.
But that would make me suffer.
Gastric always pass by,
Especially these few day.
Really feel quite terrible,

Today decided to have a cup of apple + aloe vera juice + protein before went out.
Feel a bit better becoz gastric again right after woke up ><"

And the other matter is lately really feeling broke,
Due haven't clear out my cash flow.
Want to keep chasing and tried to clear out sis balance which she lend me.
OTW to office I called KIT and chase about my payment again haha~ hopefully she really could clear her balance within today.
I left RM 50 as my pocket money.
My bro is some kind of monster where cost me lots of pocket money by "eat"
I wonder how much I've spent within these 2 month on "food"?
at least 300-400?? Oh Man!!~

So I call KIT and questioned how much budget for tml dinner...RM 50? if it does I decided not to go along.
Luckily she said they couldn't book the place becoz full booking so they might change destination.
Mby I still can go along...& received a news from her about the commission we get from holiday programmer sponsorship...
Its not that much as I expected but its alright...at least got some so I could calculate back to my frenz.
to ES bank so she tried to return back to me.
I think I've sponsor her around 3k? -.-"

Ytdy started read the book where M borrowed although I haven finish my own book.
Thinking of return back to him next week so tried to finish it off these few day if possible.
10 habit...although alrdy knew what kind of content it could be but still have to finish it off to make sure there's something I could learnt from it & not to wasted M effort of borrowing.
Its pretty rare you'll get someone lend good books to you.
So, when people want to borrow me good books, asked yourself...why not?
Quite interesting quote I learnt from there...
The one I admire the most is...

very rich people talked about ideas of lifes
rich people talked about their lifes and sometimes talked about ideas of lifes
middle people talked about things,sometimes talked about their lifes and rarely talked about ideas of life
poor poeple talked about things and people

What's that mean?I think you know?
Gossip, news = People
Entertainment, trip, news etc = Things
Business, plan, time, money,questions etc = Ideas

And lately I saw a video shared from frenz...very meaningful video
读多书不等于一定会成功，却能不断吸收知识，不读书就一定输人半拍
人可以白手起家，却不能手无寸铁

Ytdy pretty shock when I heard grandma said she want to buy a nutrilite due she faces a little problem of health lately...
She doesn't know what name of the product but mby I could figure it out...
Fiber??due she seldom get enough fiber from meal since living alone now...

I've to restock lately and see what I need as well.
Its actually RM 9x but she thought below than RM 5x.
I will still buy for her even she din pay any.

PS:
Ya know, I really feel glad to hear that shirley sis you really open & expand your mind & vision now...
keep going :)
And anything you wan to buy?

Monday terribly blue!!
Actually took mc today.
Really gastric in the morning & a little headache...
The more bad is period, feeling super not well...

Finally & really finally got platinum trophy for P4G!
At last...played 160 hour for it to hunt the trophy and around 4 circle,
Perfectionist...once again after the game only take dinner even lil bro keep mumbling around hahaha...
Next game trophy? Okami~ the last trophy also...afterward? perhaps Resident evil 6 because recently lil bro corporate the game with me (2 player) and hunt for it every nite...
Or perhaps continued my Disgaea 3 where could spent few hundred hours of hunting...
2nd bro asked a question : what still can play with that game?
Due he's the one who touch the game at the beginning, finish the story & stopped.
I said we are hunting trophy and try to complete all the game mode of story for each characters...
Seems he's not interested with hunting game data & trophy but just enjoy the story which it could mean "wasted of money if he bought all the game just like that"
If you finished off the story within few hours, what for you spent 100-200 to get the CD? why not just spent RM 50 to play in any game shop?isn't that more valuable to you?He's definitely not suitable for disgaea game where need to spend the longest game play time by hunting levels, items, trophys,characters and etc etc.

Argh, saw a few mail sent from M & C...
Seems there's some work shall be done lately...
Banner?Recent product brochures!?

Actually I am more addicted to next WLS alrdy hahaha!!!
Looking forward and learn something new~~perhaps?

PSN under maintenance today...cannot refresh my trophy data & post it on now...perhaps next day?

Had weird dream whole week...because of playing RE 6 before sleep? =.=
Today? I saw she switch the seat position of arranging paper work & look at the counter.
So brilliantly I don't open any of my document but arranging my own font folder due there's around 10k font & some of it PFM format cause me lots of trouble while installing the font into the lappie last few times.
Delete those PFM format font (which compatible to windows 7 or Vista)
Ohhh Man....that's a lot!!
Actually I could directly switch to type format and delete the only format I want...
But I click 1 by 1 n delete LOLZ!!
Din pick up the call and pretend AFP (away from phone) due annoyed cust call...

Yesterday OTW back home, I saw a stupid malay guy putting a cigarate towards 3 years old child to try the SMOKE! But the kid din try on it...
How bad he was if he as a father of that son!?
Its about a week I din touch my VITA...
Now feel kinda miss it...
Go back and stick back with it XD

今天我都在做些什麽，又是自己的東西
老闆娘偷懶到檳城去了
自由？才怪呢。。。殘障人士在，哪會自由~
故意奘有東西做的模樣，免得又被她講東講西~
她把自己給規矩約束，自然也一併約束人家。
下午午飯回來她背著工作,我幾分鈡在門外所以看不到我，
我卻發現她再看時鐘，又是在檢看比較人家的午飯時間~
話説，我完全沒有去留意她們出門時間，

公司裏除了網上播放的音樂以外，依然寧靜。
有個別部門的同事那份文件叫我簽 Quotation...
這種文件，簽也罵不簽也罵的。才不要管呢！~
萬一得付費的，以我的工資多多都付不起！

天天吃酸辣的食物，肉類~
又要吃什麽好呢！？

今天來了個貌似客人其實是基督教徒的見證人進了來問了我幾句，

1.你有想過人是怎麽誕生的嗎。
2.人死去后會怎麽樣，有希望嗎。
3.生老病死，未來。
4.相不相信有上帝。
5.上帝真的關心我們嗎。
6.怎樣才能過幸福快樂的生活。
7.戰鬥和苦難會永遠終止嗎。

我很老實跟她說我沒有任何宗教也沒想要任何的一個，我有屬於自己的信仰。
曾經研究過也因爲好奇在學校圖書館借過聖經來讀。
小時候曾經是佛教，讀過不少佛教經去過一些聚會。

我早就想過這些問題，也回答過自己。
由於不允許公共場合這樣說，
只好說雖然沒任何信仰卻自己有自己的一套想法。
習慣來了,又在自問自答。
我的答案如下:

1.人怎麽誕生嗎,目前爲止都只有無數的假設卻沒有實際證據,我又不是科學家,看是否等到未來某科學家證實到咯...
2.死了就死了,還有什麽可言, 難道可以重生嗎...至於什麽天堂地獄, 沒去過哪裏知道,管它的~
3.生老病死?見慣不慣~現代社會人往往就是"等"失去才懂得珍惜與後悔...社會培育了 "等下"
這坏習慣...至於未來,使自己掌握的,你坐着等錢掉下來給你嗎...
4.跟以前的答案一樣.信自己多過信不實際的等待
5.史上這麽多億人, 它還不就是世上最忙的工作狂了!?
6.清楚知道自己要的是什麽, 能讓你開心的定義.
7.人就本身就有貪念之心, 無論在哪裏都有無數的戰爭(心理,鬥爭,戰鬥等等)
苦難嗎,還是得靠自己想辦法,難道“等”他幫你解決嗎...

她又是一個說難得我不像其他人完全抗拒，能夠平靜繼續話題聊天，樂觀的人。
只不過現在在公司，碰巧到我完全不想説話的地方。

我的信仰？開心努力生活每一天~
不要老是跟著人家屁股走，想做什麽就什麽！

看到了剛寄回來,又是昨天三八的假文憑,
又要改!?立刻咒駡了幾句...
他媽的你以爲我很得空那麽神啊, 幾塊錢的東西改這麽久!!

昨晚跟Elena去晚餐！又能 “痴餐”（translate to cantonese)
走前我又到附近買炸雞（kepong baru mamak 大樹下那裏）
又再繼續買麵包~

其實說要甚錢，
可是卻沒想那麽多~
要吃就吃！難道等到有能力卻無法吃的時候才來吃嗎。
我跟她也同意：我們不看“好不好吃”，只看“能不能吃”，
吃的是一種幸福，
閑吃就什麽都別吃，餓死算了。
傍晚繼續去夜市，繼續吃！

夜市，依然多人。
突然下起雨来，
淋着10分钟的雨走回去。
全身8成湿透了！
还拿着8KG重的东西。
更糟的事，我已经饿到脚软，手抖的情况了。
两小时前才吃了午餐，这么快就饿到这样了。
我就像饿鬼那样只顾着先急着吃，其他什么都不理。
小时候常常处于这种饥饿状态，搞得胃痛的毛病严重。
所以我讨厌哪种挑食的人，
明明就有得吃，还一大堆选择！
还嫌弃~不吃给我吃！多多都杀！

open email.
saw few mail included the one make me fed-up
becoz they din provide each example for me to change the info so i use the old file they have
alrdy told them i can't do such work in office especially in front of boss
they din send me last nite but this morning and due i still have C things to follow up during morning.
they said need it urgently but end up 4 pm also can't finish.
send 3-4 mail with at least 2 draft but still said something wrong and keep making changes.
end up dun bother alrdy, since they said urgent they should think of ready by themselves with their own time.

An old man came in and ask me to do charity.
old man...unfortunately you asked the wrong person,
you should ask colleague who loved to do charity all the time
and i am the only one who wont do any charity here

Okami going to achieve platinum soon,
left the very last trophy to hunt, pretty fast.
tonite got M work need to be done.

I feel very easy annoyed lately,
especially in office.

Last Sat sleep late (9.30 am) woke up with body alarm once again...
jump up and quickly ready to go out...thinking wan to bring along vita or not but at the end din do so...
reached  office, holy shiit no electric supply~ neighbor saids they alrdy called upon TNB to fix it...
10.00-10.35 am sit at outside like a stupid and think it could be fix soon...
the other reason is because office too damm hot & dark! One round walk inside to fill water alrdy sweating & hot due only 1 big window & door at the front and none at the back...
10.35 am~ feel very annoying & somehow I felt hungry...so end up decided to have breakfast at the corner kopitiam & since it was at the same row, I'll know if the electrical supply back to work.
11 am - 11.15 am finished breakfast ( still electric city )
11.15 am- 1.00 pm chit chat with mee uncle & aunties while still awaiting... heard that its been out of electric since 7.30 am morning~
1.30 pm (bought soya drinks again and continue sitting - mee uncle & aunties finished clean up and they ask me to join & eat durian) directly go with them & no bother about the electric city anymore...
Regret to brought out the vita! better go back home earlier and hv fun with okami rather than wasting time waiting...
There's 1 colleague directly went back home after 10.30 am, while other 2 colleague stupidly stay in the dark & hot office from morning until 3 pm...
And at the same time boss didn't inform people that can go home directly and dun hv to wait...& I saw boss came by for awhile & drove out again...

*Its not a bad example to let employees keep await by doing nothing but still not informing them to go back home earlier...
*You could seen their responsibly(colleague)towards the company but also very stupid by staying in the uncomfortable zone & suffer themselves up...

Pretty interesting speech by speaker from china for the very 1st time.
Although his pronunciation isn't that good but pretty impressive he can speak kinda smoothly.
His explanation in drawing was the most attractive.
By showing the boxes with bee and flies.
And then turn up drawing human body at the bottom by show the boxes is the mind/brain of different 2 type of person & mindset.

Ugghh, heard about product brochures with none idea given...
Bad~~ & I din do the work after gathering on sat nite...
Sun still enjoying okami until around 8 pm -.-"
By then only I started some workout...
But still din comes up with any good idea due I think lack of images, too many pages and no complete info given...
Simply put the images up to the layout given by M and save out...>,<
Worst draft I ever done before...
BRAIN STUCKED WITH RUBBISH & TERRIBLY NEED TO FLUSH  ><"

Insanely think of having kari soup mee this morning at 9.35 am...
Harshly walked to kopitiam and finished in 5 minit!!
Can people really finished a cup of drinks and hot soup mee in 5 minit!? -.-"

一直出钱却仍未收到钱的关系,
搞得我完全失去要继续自己的freelance工作, 都hold着了
加上这星期的一单哀询, 填油了~
昨天还可以请了假, 后半天懒在家里(一半是借个理由偷懒吧)
反正工钱少, 给你们扣咯~才不希罕

公司那边的理由是太过空闲, 况且失去了"心"要做
每每上班早晨电话闹钟之后都赖床到9.30左右,
很神奇的尽然是熟睡的那种, 还好身体闹钟会唤醒我~
然而到每每放假天都很早起床, 还龙马精神~
还好M那边的工作不会像自己的freelance拖拖拉拉那么长,
虽然最近多多少少都影响到那边
由于前几天晚上都没机会在家里做, 今天得完成几份~

今早一进来公司就看到字条,
说我记错了记录~
说真的,
连我自己都没发觉自己原来写错了纪录,
应该是A0图, 却写到平常的A1图
RM 1.30 跟 RM 2.60 的差距
那天吗? 我想想~ 应该是同事请假了,下午自己一人在办公室接客
搞得我都不记得什么了, 连记录都写错
最大问题是 "那不是我的钱" 所以我完全没怎么放在心上
一整天打瞌睡~
还一直一边想东西,转身就忘记~
外如一般的我~
心里像行尸走肉
完全出于颓废状态

明天又出门咯!
还在想要不要继续请假 (又偷懒!?)
也许没吧?~
问姐的计划如何再做订段~
看来我需要一段悠长的假期跟娱乐!~
因为毕竟疲惫了一段长时间,
从新启动引擎!

昨天的天气真的令人不舒服。
下午看见了四弟的信息,
说妹妹走了,叫我帮他面子书发通稿,
然后我自己再联络没怎么浏览面子书的好友。

四弟的信息断断续续,带有悲伤的表达,还有许多平时不怎么加入的句号,简语。
能够察觉到他当时的心情。

也顺个边跟kit说了,她竟然会主动说要跟我一起去,因为她算是不相干的人可是还得说声谢谢。
通知了些朋友,他们都蠻惊讶的回答尤其是daniel...然后我询问了他们的时间,安排去拜访。
跟Kit晚餐时她还依然提起说今天的天气很怪,有不详的预感然后就听到这消息。

虽然前些日子帮忙弄遗照已经有最坏打算,可是这也太突然了。
心仪这人啊,虽然不像跟她哥那样称兄道弟,只聊过几次。可爱活泼好动,家庭好,绝对是个好女孩。真可惜活不到20,没福分。

Kit也像一般人一直说 *choiii,别说不吉利的话* 但事实如此,难道说好话能解除病魔吗?
至于*他会想不开的吗*这问题?
我答复她**我这老兄没问题,他很坚强,不需要我们太操心。虽没见他流过泪,但并不脆弱,自从妹妹有事后,他变得更成熟了。

我不说虚言,只有真言,所以别怪我直言。因为我希望人面对现实,而不是伪造虚实。

今天通知兄弟们,然后帮他买他拜托的东西,
去拜访。

Morning sleep late again even alarms rang.
Monday blue!
Still be able to reached before 10 am to open the stupid door.
although the weather is good but my mood spoiled by 废人 again. Damm you asshole!
"这么迟，xxx 走掉了"
~ If xxx can't wait for 5 min ppl open up the fxxxing door then xxx should request to kept for the door key..I can tell you, you may not enter the door sometime due xxx always take leave n even late than me you stupid jerks!
~ I open up before 10 am...you dun hv rights to said "late"...i know you got cars, try walk from you house everyday la pals..lets gamble and see how it feels!
~ If she doesn't come back its her own matter not coming to work...why should I care due she din care about her attendances.

Some client spoke "how are you"
I believe you may see through my face!

Dinner tonight...
Last warning/announcement need to be made for "bali trip" group...

Weather is good
Face is black
Mood is bad

Internet down again two days ago (thursday awal muharam holiday)
Why you down on that day T_T!! which causing M artwork submit been delay...
Meanwhile its the next day I get Black ops 2~ =.="
But luckily they improve their service in 24 hours so its back to online the next day...
And during the complaint & conversation on air...
My malay really...sucks alrdy hahaha!!
My language generator switched to english while thinking how to talk to "malays staff"
Err..Yee...So most of the time I stopped and dun even know how to continue in malay...
Tried to speak in malay as I can....mix with english (mostly in english)
Wish to go somewhere this weekend due spend too many time on hunting P4G trophy...
But dun even know where to go and no accompany...
So might continue P4G again...

Overate spend this week due need to treat lil bro meal along all the time...so I need to pay double pax all the time...try to cut it down to avoid interruption on cashflow...

Good to have another day to enjoy ma jiong after my suggestion with brothers again since its been a long time...
We asked each other what are we doing during holiday!! haha!! all sit at home and cultivate mushroom!
Although I win most of the time but tried to make it fair so at the end we actually no winner and loser haha!
And most importantly we have fun and happy conversation during game again as usual...
Due raven bro sister matter so we actually  tried not to tired him up by hanging out and help him to save time & budget to stay with his sister...

I can see through raven face after kira bro asked him about his sister health situation...
sad, hope, tiredness and all kind mixture...
That night...raven spoke a sentences he get to understand deeply lately...

"People choose their previous moment, relationship or friendship...they gain and loss, we can see through by heart"

his 細心 and 感性/理性 by this age upgraded...

There's some stuff has to be done lately but I lose intention of doing...
Perhaps I should finish off the P4G 1st only I could concentrate of doing my stuff hahaha~
So all my hardworking basically " P4G"!!!~
tml should be the same and stick with vita whole day..otherwise okami?COD black op 2?

Monday dinner cancel - a bit sad but good timing due many people ain't free (reason of sadness because I need to spend on dinner again)
Last week lil bro cook rice and requested me to buy dishes.
He complain me that 2nd bro used pretty rude way to talk : you cook rice but no dishes how to eat!!?(I am still on the way home during that moment)
And yesterday, lil bro suggest to fried rice for lunch...ok I am ok with that (actually i am thinking to order MCD before 11 am though)
I'm the one who prepared all the ingredient and ask lil bro to cook rice and so forth.
lil bro ask 2nd bro do we hv to cook his share too...
I heard their conversation he didn't gave any proper answer and its in a rude way again.
lil bro gets angry immediately afterward and I cool him down...
Afterward he went out without noticing people (we anggap tak nampak also)
After he came back, he saw the fried rice on the table, he ask what is the ingredient due he saw something weird...
I added lotus odd, egg, garlic, onion etc due there's no meat and any other green vege...
He said it wont taste good by adding lotus odd...Immediately I scold him back: is there any rules of cooking?can you judge it by not following the proper recipe?!

Hey you $#@#!^#%!!
You didn't work on any progress of cooking!
You didn't tell people do you wan to eat but reply in very rude ways back!
You didn't thank people who cook but COMPLAIN/still JUDGING this and that still none apologize!
You didn't appreciate people's effort & think of you and you still act/talk so rudely to us!?
STOP JUDGING...you're acting like a 3 years old child and look at your age now...20?who believe!?

That is why we "hate" him so much and nvr wan to share/ talk to him!
I nvr buy his dinner also alrdy due
1. he didn't pay back
2. nvr say thank you or sorry
3. he got car, why still ask people who din drive to go out n buy!?
4. he din automatically help
5. against to you rudely / complain

He's the one who never learn to talk/act nicely and appreciates people goods.
No more cooking for him also!
Ate yourself or just DIE starving on the street...None of my business!

and yeah, that's my brother...
Praise him in front of my frenz/relatives and telling them how good he was? NO!
Who Cares, I will honestly WRECK him DOWN by telling you how bad he was!!
Because he din really done any GOOD thing in my lifetime story!!

Think
is really really important
but he never think even further
speechless and brainless

早上起床（超懒惰）由于这星期的公共假期
喝了半杯的茶放在桌上，就出门了（事实是忘了喝完！上班半路才想起~哈哈）
在公司（又是那么得空闲，又是做属于我的东西）
看见M的 email （哦！更改别人的卡片资料，结果由于他们的设计template太过复杂，搞了很久才发现我眼前老伯电脑saving速度太慢了！决定用别的方法！然而又忘了save...结果从新做过~[隐约记得步骤与font]半小时内快快完成~）

那三八还是没自动serve客人,刻意要"别人"接~很自然且无意又咒骂了一顿“连脚都残废了”
他们可真没听过我说半句粗语（多数骂在心里头，还是不讲的好~）
明天又得做什么呢？星期三刚巧还得上班（假期太不规律了）

前天，很惊讶四弟(raven)竟然facebook msg 我（由于最近他都不碰fb)
还没看到他留言，先按了按他给的link...尽然是他妹妹的照片!
我心里就显出 “惨了！？是不是！？难道？？是遗照所用！？”
我犹豫了将近5-10分钟，还是决定实话实问（用很小心的词言）：这。。。遗照？
他没考虑就回答了： 对，你能不能帮我弄成像死人遗照那样？棺材前的那种~
我：嗯，没问题，弄好了给你看，几时要呢？
他：尽可能吧，因为不知她何时就走。
我：ok （一不说二不坐立刻弄给他）
中途询问他找了别的照片（由于本人觉得有很多张都不合适）
结果凭感觉挑了一张（把本人cut出来再加单色背景[问了问四弟的颜色要求]）
今早又收到了他的留言：帮忙 zoom
放工回去，出门前先帮他完成~
因为，这比其他事情都来得无比重要~
虽然跟他妹妹相处的时间不长，可因咱是兄弟，感情自然与普通朋友不太一样。
那份伤感，却对不输于其他人~
更何况她非常地年轻，仍未到真正享受生活的年龄。
作出心理准备
与预备送白金
确实说得没错
珍惜身边的人

祈祷与祝福
珊

今天星期六（如果没工作就好了）
如果不是一位客人的来电，我像今天去不成公司了哈哈哈。
因为睡到不知道铃声是否响过~
就如上回所说的，太闲了！
果然，今天又是在做自己的设计工作。
昨晚帮了帮C弄她公司的Flag，
平时很注重语言表达的我完全无视了（由于不确定她能否明白年轻人的网络语言）
过后才发现有不少字打错但是都不成问题，在短短的一小时内完成（还重新trace过一个logo)
本想继续而外的工作。可是，懒虫再次附身！有心无力~
果然就这样停止了，打P4G去了。
因为工作表时间的安排对我来说不是问题了。

昨天可以去做了眼睛测试检查，
一年多没检查了，更何况很好奇自从服式了placenta后的好处到达哪里。
店员说没增加 （O_O）~~很好！
看来不是没增加，而是近期间减少了~
想象一下我天天至少14小时都对着电脑，电玩。那有不可能增加度数的！
以往年年都增加50度，闪光会偏高~
很高兴这一年尽然没差~（由于近期对电子反射过量）
Kit进来就说吃了placenta几天而已这里痛那里痛~（体质状况差与毒素偏高）
现在慢慢地把她体内的毛病都全打出来，再修复。
她很羡慕我什么状况都没有很健康！哈哈哈哈！

一位朋友的product brochure都仍未完成，Kit昨天又偷偷扔了份给我。
由于她无意宣扬了我帮她设计的A4 size flyer很多人都觉得很不错。
其实我自己当时完全没构思，胡乱加加剪剪贴贴弄出来的（因为她也赶时间，半小时替她完成）有人还跟她说是否用了几天时间做。
自己依然还觉得那张美中不足呢（是自己要求太高吗？？）

今天又为客人进来说设计的更改，从我替他设计的现代化风格变回老人家风格。
对我来说很新鲜，新潮流的独特风格，看来这位客人不合适吧。

近期来该完成它们，倘若M那里扔炸弹过来就完蛋了（意思是肯定得连续熬夜）
避免情况的发生，尽可能快完成~

看似容易，
其实又不容易；
看似困难，
其实一点都不难。

明天，要出门吗？还不知道呢~
今天干什么啊~~
回家附mask + 吃饱睡觉 + 读书 + vita!!~

突然很想吃点心！！~谁要陪我去吃啊?

最近就只有一个字可言：“懒”
基本是因为在公司失去了最重要的忠与诚，
所以做什么都完全不上心（除了属于自己的事情以外）
更不帮忙任何事情，准时进出门。
再加上最近都在公司[坐]多过[做]
又不能完全做属于自己的东西（基本时间都在做自己的东西）
简直是闷死了，也一直打瞌睡~
偶然没人的时候还开了开vita来玩 LOL!!
这两天都一直在猎P4G的其中一个trophy [250不同的广播-最难的一个]
还印刷了两份稿，出现那广播就做记号 [因为偶然不一样，无法用普通方法记载]
就一直翻来翻去记录下来~纸都被折成草一样哈哈
昨晚还玩到3点才肯睡觉[因为完美主义者的坏习惯-必须完成那关卡才肯停]
今早还想如果生病就能请假了！[想偷懒了]

昨晚跟小弟去夜市，笨蛋的他没有带雨扇，我俩在中途淋了不少雨。
虽然花了不少钱，但他还是很识趣的自动帮我拿东西，回到家帮我做这个那个的，晚上宵夜会去买，偶尔晚餐还想煮饭给我吃，平时吩咐他做点事情都不会推迟。
完全跟大弟弟的行为性格是天渊之别！
星期一Kit来到我家等的时候她很奇怪听到小弟弟直称我名而不是姐弟。
然而我回应：这还好，那个大弟弟连叫你名字都不太可能，除非有求于你的时候。

又来打瞌睡了，
星期日姐提议是否要去sunway逛逛[还在考虑当中，因为实在太懒惰了哈哈哈]
我还突然想起姐说找个星期日pasarmalam 吃个够[当天也能实行，但愿没下雨]
说山穷水尽，还不是在想着花费的计划？哈哈哈~
适合而止，尽可能不乱花费~
得提醒朋友准备文件，警告不能再容许因为种种理由拖延。
因为我不耐烦了，毕竟必须公私分明，Dateline就是Dateline。
试问预约约定哪里可以这样不断延迟！？如果是别人，早就被人鸟然后失去计划了！

在这世界上，还有什么是不需要花费的呢？

昨天认识了新朋友，
只是短短的一小时，她说我人很正面，很直爽。
因为我直接说我不需要听保险了，聊些别的做朋友。
不是我不喜欢保险，只是没需要更何况我也是个中间人。
她这种非常有经验的一下下就明白了，因为她是个manager了。
挺漂亮~皮肤也很好！结了婚有孩子了哦。。。
当我告知年龄时她说大我足足10岁。
她也说我很有自己的个性，说的东西/方式都远远超乎现今年龄。年龄24，思想却到达了30+
最让她好奇的是我不偏向女性，也不完全像男性。
她问这样的性格是否会有很多人或客人不怎么喜欢跟我做朋友/生意？
然后我问她，你觉得呢？跟我聊了这么久，觉得怎么样？
** 你说话有一定的道理且深度，没什么戒心，也没企图却很细心观察。
** 虽然这是头一次认识你却很喜欢跟你聊天，因为不需要避免什么话题，敢于分享。
** 表面看上去没怎么样，其实你很有自己的想法，已经知道未来的路该怎么走。
** 你有志，只是缺了事成还有本。很独立，老实，做事情有自己的一套与办法。
** 是个大姐大，跟30-40的人沟通不成问题。
** 想法特殊，难以抓摸。

我也观察到她挺会观察人的，所以她探讨到我这种思维的人，很难追~
** 要求高，思维快，是很难找到另一半的喔？你不担心吗？
** 我很好奇平常你怎么跟人聊天的？（不知道怎么跟她解释，只能说好像朋友所说的：通常我都是在听而已，可是一讲话就往往全场stun掉）
然后她还一口确定我还是单身哈哈哈！
原来大家都是狮子叻！
她说其实那天她在pb bank遇见我正在等人想跟我谈保险的时候，就觉得我特殊？
因为她很少遇到像我这样的人，她还跟同事在电话解释无意间遇到我这样的人：
直接说 “对保险没兴趣，不需要跟我讲保险。但做个朋友喝杯茶。然后给一张卡片叫她打给我吧~（由于那天朋友已经到达，所以不能继续）
** 我开始觉得跟你讲话有点可怕，因为抓摸不到哈哈哈！（有没有那么恐怖噢！？）

她又是一个说我“神”，走这么远上下班！
做这么多东西，没太多酬报却很享受过程然后不断学习！
问我为什么能这样？
我也不知道，就是不能死死做一样东西，会很快厌倦。
然后就是好奇+学习+探讨新事物的心态很重吧？~
当然我也高兴认识多一个朋友了啦~

今天不知哪里来的怒气。
想找沙包！
想起姐昨天问：
我如何释放自己的闷气？
其实一直以来都没有方法，有的就只是公平解决问题吧，所谓解铃还须系铃人~
（但是往往现实中不可能发生要不然我就不会储蓄到这么多的怒气了）
有很多很多的怨气，闷气，怒气一直都在心里的深处。
我就像一座活火山，随时爆发，炮发的熔岩一瞬间烧死人。
其实今天的training...我不怎么想去~因为有个statement要做，虽然我能在半小时内完成。

不知道发什么神经，有股冲动想买部新电脑~

Sunday- morning badminton...period but still play like nth happen though LOL!
evening movie...pretty funny due the sound of 007 suddenly shows up in perfect timing...
and there's a uncle fall asleep and sleeping sounds -.-"
night dinner...steamboat! actually I want to recommended other places but due it's more expensive and they are more likely pick able food person so I decided to keep it silent and follow their decision.

Started took placenta for a week...
hmm,very weird nth happen due basically people who sick would shows up some special effective...
where only 1 week, they alrdy see some whitening & soft skin changes on my skin where mean I am very HEALTHY for now! because normally people needed a month to get recover from inside until their skin.
So after dinner ytdy, my team start analysis me included KIT due she wan to know the benefits of the placenta.
She mentioned a question ytdy, wont it be crash with the supplement?
I said I took BOTH everyday...
It could be even better..
Why I have to stop my supplement?no right?
humans still need lots vitamins to survive & I was just added extra placenta to recover my stem cell.
I didn't do any body checkup so I dun know is there any problem inside me...
But to prevent that to happen & the same time to recover my dead stem cell where I cannot see.
I took placenta too!! & I took vitamins daily too!

Ytdy not much people...but good because we can concentrate and treat it as a training.
KIT joined!! and I suggest her to try it due doctors said they couldn't help her body problem.
荷尔蒙失调...where given her many other problem, visit many doctor and medicine but still...
I know her  personalities...she can't accept people treat her free eg "gift something she's not afford to pay back in return"
I know she actually wan to buy but not afford to~

So i said why not just give it a try since this placenta recover hormone too!
Dun think about the payment because you can pay jeff anytime when you afford to...


hmm about some special case after I took the placenta for a week?
* no sudden headache yet
* no sudden 胃痛 yet
* period pain deducted
* skin whitening & smooth
* more energetic
* need to sleep when 11.30 pm - 12 am  (can't stay late due eye keep wan to close)
* woke up even early
* sometimes will feel a bit hot from deep body which mean blood is doing their work?

The rest is still unknown...
might going to do eye check up see whether decrease due some sight of people improved!
Why I took it?
1. For my health
2. To understand for
3. Curiosity about the benefits of placenta can provide us.
4. Blessed to have people who afford to let me try it by my own and didn't request me for money.

Our team installed "wechat" and guess what...ytdy my phone keep vibrate!!because they keep voice talk there...non-stop, and they ask why I so silent there & voice so low...because I am working, people would think I am crazy if talked to myself suddenly -__-"

Anyway,there's new statement job ongoing tonite!!~
At least M stuff been settle last nite where cause me stay up until 2 am~~
Urrghhh! hopefully not for tonite again >-<"

Very  frequent that you seen employees not willing to go work because of their own reason.
So most of them you can see from their face, perhaps some didn't because they're good to hide their true feeling...
But I'm not the one who may hide everything inside due I'm a LEO.
So apparently once I step in office or people mentioned about them/office matter,
Automatically all these feeling pops out once I step in office...
1. emotion = off
2. silent mode = on
3. angry mode = on
4. rude word = on
5. ability/talent = off
6. sight & vigilance = sharpen

Recently,
1.She din even switch on the pc of my seat (due boss wont get in so early)
2.She din move to pick up the call especially when boss isn't around
3.Din even bother walk in customer if boss isn't around
4.Black face to my regular customer
5.Track people's record such as email so basically  I delete all belongs my hand.
etcs
I've upgraded her level to "People with disabilities aka 残障人士"
If its from deep of my heart I've alrdy organized it "useless aka 废人"
Very funny that rmb the pc I mentioned that she called frenz to help on with PHONE?
At the end still can't be fix...I was super duper happy due my advice/conclusion was right!
Only 1 solution I've advice to the person who in charge with that pc before "残障人士" hand = FORMAT!
And since "残障人士" doesn't believe in whatever I said or done alrdy,so she use her own "way"

My brain all with FOOD,
like yesterday halloween party...
Their food is good due they prepared themselves and was't outside food where I doesn't like very much
So after I tried the mi hun~good!fried rice~good too! n then move on to satay!! even more delicious...
Ate around 20 satay LOL! even Freedom also keep go n grab haha...
Why you should care, its free~beer,wine, yogurt, orange juice
Wan to call jeff to pick up his book but he didn't call back after 12.25 am where I just get back home..
Din even bother so get to sleep alrdy ><"

Need for speed most wanted for ps3/vita
There's earlier version from ps2...and top 5 racing game.
I bought vita ver due I didn't really got much time to spend on TV.
Awesome! graphic, interface, system, game mode, map.
everything become even reality and motion control/animation.
Need to spend some time to analysis it due it is all whole new.
And there's many awesome good car where looks good! so far the car I've unlock where look super awesome is..White Lamborghini but forgotten which type of it XD

Thanks to M, question yourself or people has become one of my daily habit now...
And you see...
This morning I think about a weird question and i din even know why and how...

**Why "must" people do charity?

Yesterday dinner cancel...
Pretty sad because one of the reason is to go there and eat free...hahaha (just joking)
Anyhow, Kit suddenly pop in to office to print out something...
She noticed that colleague shows "black face" after there's regular customer went in and do large photocopy.
No matter her "black face" towards any of us...
She has given people more bad impression...
She's not "busy"...perhaps she SHOULDN'T promise customer towards urgent jobs...
& seems they learnt one thing...NOT TO RELAY on me...
Due there's one pc hang at explorer and SUPER DUPER SLOW...
I alrdy knew it could be VIRUS error and software crash out...
Anyway...I choose not to help so tried to lie whatever I could LOL!
By then colleague called frenz to help...
Oh yeah GOOD !!I could stay hell way out of it where doing useless job by FOC all these time!!
Guess she learnt to think LEARN IT YOURSELF!!

Alright stop mentioned on that...
Kit ask me to dinner along & since I'm still free so I went to 1U with her...
Because she's helping kids to buy Halloween witches hat...
At the same time I think about wednesday party...
So I brought a simple opera mask for that...
Afterwards...
Back to desa park city area to pick up the CAKE from a fren...
Homemade Lemonade Cheese Cake for Christine...
And continue to meet up Mark & Christine...
Kit tot Christine ain't coming because Mark alrdy on seat but haven seen her around...
Mark : I'm here to eat cake...
Kit : LOL!! hahaha...so you knew its regarding about the cake?
But I knew she would come because she's the one should receive the stuff...
just a bit slower and settling something in car...
(small other conversation continued)
Pretty good that they actually share some of the politic & opinion about "newspaper"
Well...same opinion with me, useless info where they din provided good facts but just "showing method"
So eventually we read on any the "info/heath/entertainment/technology/business/travel part"

What I want to said is..like Mark & Kit mentioned,
A story about a teenager post his last will that going to suicide...
4 of us had a same thought...At the end? He's dead or not? & close file/End of story...
If lets say he could FLY...or stop at the middle of suicide progress...that's the interesting stories...
He choose his way to suicide...so what's the big deal & special there?
The truth in newspaper could be biggest "lie"...
Christine thank me for the cake :D
Although it was one week late and no celebration but its still a gift and she appreciate that.

African client requested me to print books for her...
And so I could read it from pc OR short reading after print out.
Found out the "Discovering Your Life is Purpose" article pretty interesting...
Article is must pretty alike Rich Dad Poor Dad...
We get brainwashed to get a good job and pay rather than acknowledge our life purpose.
There's some quote pointed in there...
1. No one can be a free & great thinker who does not recognize that his or her first duty as a free & great thinker is to follow their own intellect or whatever conclusion it may lead to.
2. Do you think outside the box?
3. Those that desire to be free so as to create and express themselves, and those that desire to be slaves and help others express their creativity and remain free.
4. He/She that fails to plan has planned to fail!
5. Ask new question and you will learn new things!
6. The mind is like a parachute, it doesn't work if it's not open!

Same to what I heard from most of the leaders...
Read More, Listen More, See More, Observed More, Think More, Act More, Do More!

I read the official & unofficial story of...
TITANIC stories
9/11 Hijacked stories
San Jose Mercury Newspaper reporter Gary Webb exposed CIA "crack cocaine epidemic" at 1980's
Rev Jim Jones People's Temple

Tuesday...My job of the day in office is READING...LOL!

超没干劲的星期一
公司没东西做
手头上自己的东西又不能随便在这里做
前三天的假期我就只陶醉在电玩里
神奇的是妈妈自动说要我开我播放的“一公升的眼泪”日文的叻！
我，小弟弟与妈妈有一整晚都在看那部戏。
戴着 7.1 virtual surround headset
手机扔一边去
不让任何人打扰
一个朋友来电，其实不想接
因为知道会讲什么

心里就觉得：
* 哎哟！不需要讲了啦，讲那么多都没有用
* 现在有就有，没有就是没有
* 很烦叻
* 人家不还我钱怎么帮你（包括你自己）
*  倒不如干脆你跟你律师朋友借啦，反正你说他肯借
    事情轻易解决，又能甚电话费！

其实她太过于紧张了，这会造成别人不喜欢。
我是其中之一
虽然他明白我处理方式有自己的一套
可是不知道我不喜欢被一件事情天天纠缠着
更何况又不是没有办法，只是她自己不领别人的情
**干脆你跟朋友借，大家都好做，不用烦**

我一直叫她用最有利简单的方式解决问题
可见还是老样子

MONDAY BLUE!!!!!
士兵没了士气怎么打仗
气球没了气怎么飞
我就像没了灵魂一样
走去上班
坐在那里
不知道要干什么
也没干劲做

想起之前同事踏到我尾巴的说辞：
“这种情形持续下去不觉得很辛苦么！”（意思是愤怒）
心里的真正想法,也没说出口的词
** 不会！因为我几乎天天都处于这种情况
** 倘若你天天给弟弟和其他事情气到想砍人!!会怎么样
** 我心里闷着的气，比山还高！

一个非常信仰神的子民
而另一个外如天使内有恶魔的子民
试问这两种人是否能共存~

上星期一饭局有个非常有趣的问答题。
倘若有一天，
你没钱，
你没健康，
你没人帮，
你到绝望的时候，
你能怎么做？
有个有趣的安蒂说：求神！
我就想起：
某天同事似乎跟另一个同事（不同department）说
“有些人信仰佛教后，病就好了”

坐在一旁的我在想
** 是吗？
** 真的这么神奇？
** 试问现今地球有多少人？
** 为何存在于地球50%的人依然得癌症？依然无助？
“神，只是一种纯粹的信仰”

刚刚收到了难题
M 的客人, 2013日历设计
客人在 Mail 里还说 please design a fantastic one...
我当时就敲我的头额一下, 呆了几秒钟~
虽然2012日历很顺利,可是很吃力
又是一个高难度挑战了
得做多点功课与 research 了
倘若他直接给我 idea 的话就好啦! >.<"